I’ve been doing some research on various blogs and I realize the posts get the most comments are the ones where the writer is totally honest. It could be a post that is happy, sad, tragic, technical…But the feelings expressed are clearly honest. That’s not to say I haven’t been honest in my posts. I think I’ve been somewhat inhibited about my true thoughts and feelings. So, I guess I’m going to try and be as honest as possible from here on out.
This blog is an attempt by me to use my voice. Most of my life I haven’t felt like I could express my true feelings, thoughts or opinions unless I am being angry at someone or something. I have been learning lately that what is truly most important to me is to use my voice, not be afraid to say what’s on my mind. I have been afraid of making people angry, or of not being liked or of not living up to others’ expectations of me. And while I don’t want to be rude or unkind to anyone, I need to learn the confidence to be honest about my feelings. Most people think I am so together, strong, confident. But inside I have many insecurities. I don’t feel smart, pretty, interesting or strong. I’ve learned to put on a good show.
In this blog, I want to feel free to express myself and to give others a place to express themselves. I am always interested in other people and their lives. I enjoy talking to people about themselves and engaging them in conversation. I hope through this process I will meet people who will talk to me and tell me their stories. I believe everyone has an interesting story and wants the chance to express themselves. I hope people will see this forum as a safe place to speak out. I will only share those stories that I have permission to share. No one will be hurt or embarrassed by talking to me.
I guess I’m rambling now. So in closing, I am asking for you to contact me with your story, reply to this blog, comment on it. Use this as your chance to take your 10 minutes and talk to me.
See? it worked! Here I am posting a comment, Barbara!
I think we all have insecurities and the great thing about you is that you’re out in the world, living life, instead of hiding. Plus, you always know how to make people feel good about themselves (or is that just for me? LOL).
I’ve known you a long time (with a long break in the middle) and I think it’s great that you’re learning to be authentic.
This blog is great and so are you, Barbara Rimerman Dab!
Margit, my friend, thanks for the support! I’m so glad we have reconnected. I’ll continue working at being more authentic and keep you posted (no pun intended).