As you can see from my post feed, it’s been quite awhile since I last posted here. And while it sounds cliche, as I look back I am quite surprised at both how much I’ve changed and how much more myself I’ve become. This journey I’m on has taken some unexpected twists and turns. For the most part, I’m very happy with where my life has taken me. But as I recently celebrated a milestone birthday, I’m realizing there’s much I still want to do and say.
Someone who’s opinion I value most highly (besides my own) recently told me I have some sort of “magic,” when it comes to making others feel good. When I was young, my mother told me I have a “magnetic,” personality, meaning I draw people to me. I’m not sure if either of those things are true but they are, to me, lovely characterizations by people I love. So, what do I do with that? I honestly don’t know. But I believe I’ve now lived long enough to have gained some wisdom and experience, I’ve tried to be emotionally and spiritually aware and I’m hoping to not be afraid to express myself more.
I don’t plan to rehash the last several years of my life. Events and lessons will no doubt appear in my writing and be self evident. My goal here is to become brave about sharing my thoughts and to develop my own voice. I also hope to interact with others through my writing and if I’m lucky, to help others deal with life’s challenges.
As to the idea of being “magic,” I’ll just say that I truly believe everyone has some magic within them. Each of us is born with our own soul that should guide us through life and that can touch others. I am someone who actively searches for my life’s meaning and tries to follow the path that reveals itself day by day. I strive to be happy and content with my lot in life, though I also set high goals for myself. I look for the good in everything, but I feel pain at the despair of others and the ugliness that is often present. I work to have patience, but often my anger gets the better of me. In short, I am working on being human and on loving myself. I believe that at the end of the day, that is how to live my Jewish value of “repairing the world,” one step at a time.
For today, try to find the magic you carry inside yourself, I know it’s there if you just look for it.